Today is my birthday! Two years ago today, my husband asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and I said “three hours in a coffee shop by myself to write something other than a to-do list”. He granted my wish, and I emerged three hours later with an essay about my Grandma J and an idea to start a blog.
I haven’t been great about writing recently…I could write an entire entry that was just a list of excuses and explanations (and I might write it soon!), but today, I just want to spend an hour on my birthday making a list of things I don’t want to forget about the last few months.
(1) My grandmother/G.G. She passed away recently, and I don’t want to forget what an amazing person she was. Future blog posts need to include how she insisted I keep looking for the right guy…”one who will dance with you, K” (a long story, not a judgment on guys who don’t dance : ), how she struck a deal with that right guy when he came along…”I’ll tell the family I like you if you’ll tell them I’m a good driver”…and how she taught me much about life and cards. In the meantime, here she is pictured holding H during her one time meeting him and my last time seeing her. This photo was taken at my sister’s baby shower, where there were lots of friends present. GG, in the nicest way possible, said to one of them who was sitting between us, “Could you sit back while you talk? I’m trying to look at that baby!” Ha! Love you GG!
(2) My excitement over the arrival of my new nieces and nephew! Oh what joy to be an aunt, and to such precious bundles. Can’t wait to spoil you cousins O and J and G! And happy early mother’s day to their mamas! I will think of you as we’re all up at 3am feeding babies!
(3) How my own kids are growing and changing.
- Precious moments like E lying on the ground one day curled in a tiny ball and looking around. My question, “What are you doing, E?” Her response, “Pretending to be an ant! I was just thinking about how the world must look to them from our sidewalk…” Love that…
Also love this Valentine’s essay E submitted to her teacher.
If you can’t see the words in the photo, it reads
“Tomorrow is Valentine’s Day! I love my family. I love tem because taye are so nis to me. My mom is so nis because she makes diner for me. My babby brother dosn’t spit up on me. Taye are so nis because I am nis to tame.”
I especially love this because E references the fact that H spits up on everyone, something that is such a regular part of our routine but that I will likely forget down the road. Honestly, it is the kids in my life that get the brunt of it, since they stand near my legs while I’m holding H, putting them right in the line of fire. I hadn’t realized until I read this that E has not only emerged unscathed, but has also taken it as a sign of great affection from her youngest brother. May you always feel the love, E!
- S becoming such a big girl…after a lot of love and work as she struggled with some separation issues (wanting mama all the time), seeing her happily heading into school and playdates. I cannot emphasize how huge this is in our world…or how that big smile warms my heart.
I’m always here if you need me, S. But I love watching you embrace the world too. (As a side note, S enters the world with her favorite lovey – her “Angie” doll – always in her backpack. That doll makes S so happy that I love Angie too. Honestly, it sounds silly, but I have spent years caring for and protecting Angie…you would too if she were your ticket to sleep-filled nights and happy-child days!…Anyway, I didn’t realize how much it had affected me until I recently saw a different “Angie” doll in a ziploc bag on a table at a consignment sale. Honestly, I had to restrain myself from tearing the bag open so Angie could breathe! How’s that for a visceral reaction to a doll that has been big in the life of my child?! I wanted to buy that doll so badly, but stopped myself because (1) we have over a dozen backups at our house already and (2) I kept thinking about the little girl who might come along next and be delighted to take her home and love her. I realize this story makes me sound sappy, or crazy, or both, by the way. What can I say? I pray that all of my kids will find a real life “Angie” that will bring them as much comfort and happiness as this doll brings S!
- T becoming such a big boy…potty training and transitioning out of his nap (heaven help me!) I love the pride he takes in his accomplishments…proudly giving everyone in the family a marshmellow after a successful trip to the bathroom (“this is for you, daddy, because I went in the potty!”) And speaking of pride in accomplishments, check out my boy after he defeated Donald Duck in arm wrestling : ) (more on our trip to see Donald in a future blog post!)
- H growing at warp speed, but still in that precious baby stage. He’s not even close to sleeping through the night, but will fall asleep in his crib as long as I rub his head and hold his hand. I managed to snap one photo of him holding my hand while he was in his carseat. Note the tiny grip on my thumb in the lower right corner of the photo…
Oh what a fleeting phase of life, when holding mama’s hand makes it all better. Wish I could comfort all my kids so easily forever!
(4) Lots of other things to remember too…maybe someday I’ll write about our “staycation” during spring break, our week playing “hookie” when we pulled all the kids out of school and went on a road trip, Grammy and Grandpa’s amazing presence as they joined us on our last minute travels, my technological craziness (as my computer and phone both recently died), our constant barrage of minor health issues (fine, as long as the big issues stay away, please!), and so many other everyday life moments I want to remember….
but in the meantime, I’ll simply say that it’s nice to have a few minutes to type : )